16 years at a career… 13.5 with my current, soon not to be so current employer.
I’ve been thinking about this day for a long time. I am reflecting now as I turn around and look back… In this moment, the moment I hit the send button on my email, I could turn around. To look forward, to look back… To twirl around with my eyes closed head tilted towards the sky, my mouth smiling. I freed myself.
Not from my job, but from my mind. From the constant should I? Shouldn’t I? My heart begging me, pleading me to listen while my mind smacked it down demanding it to be silenced.
My mind. I feel like I should name it… because there are times that my thoughts are so far off from where my heart beats that it’s like a parasite in my brain… but today I am a little freer because I chose my heart for once and not my mind.
I will stand in this place of peace for as long as it shall embrace me, because as we all know there are bends in the road ahead that I can not see. Yet, I promise you this. The decision is the most painful part.
The longer you take to make any decision, the longer the pain will drag out. Be careful in this space because this is where you will lose yourself if you are not vigilant for that voice.
You have got to be ready for what you are about to hear. You already know the decision you should make. Yes, it scares you, and it should. Like the thrill of a roller coaster does. It makes the ride exciting. Makes your heart beat, and your hair stand up on its ends, like goose-flesh all over your skin…
It terrifies you and excites you all at the same time because it brings you to this moment and reminds you, you’re alive!! You came here to LIVE… Not to collect things and chase after the “Joneses.”
There is something inside of you asking to be heard…Listen. I don’t know what it is, only you do. When your heart tugs you to listen, pay close attention because it only starts out as a whisper… A silent little whisper reminding you of who you are and what you came here to do.
It is time for us to start listening to the one person who has all the answers, ourselves. Only we know what is best for ourselves. Others are just here to support us along the way. Some will push us, others will hold us, but only we can guide ourselves.
Day one of finding my purpose: I put in my two weeks’ notice. January 27, 2016 will be my last day. I would like to thank those who did not give me what I asked for, so I could go out and get after what I needed.
Write back soon, Love Annie
One of the hardest things to do is know which voice is your true self.
It is amazingly obvious You have found which one is yours!
Love you!
Beautifully said Anne and so true! My date was May 7, 2015, and I have not regretted it one day or looked back at what if. There wasn’t one. When I finally decided to listen to my heart and stopped torturing myself with my mind, peace was able to fill me. Way to go Anne! You are doing amazing and wonderful things! Namaste
Wow sounds so familiar! Thank you for sharing! Grateful to hear that almost one year later you still feel the same! 🙂
Tears!!!?when I read what you wrote ( but good ones) it’s been me most of my life, 20 years ago I listened to my heart and the right voice and my life changed for the best, I just have to find that voice again
Just knowing it is still there proves you can hear it again. You hear it already. You just need to be brave and do what it says… You know what to do. I love you stay strong. ?
This touched me so much. Your words spoke to me. This blog could have been entitled “I’m speaking to you francesca”. Good luck with everything. Miss you!
These are my favorite comments!!! Thank you, I’m so happy and honored to hear that…miss you too.
Love this Annie…And huge congrats!! I know that feeling all to well of pushing my heart/gut feeling aside and listening to my mind! I’m still a work in progress but slowly I am getting closer to following my heart and silencing my mind when it contradicts my heart! I’m so excited for you and your new path!!
Thank you Meg!!! Xox
You are my Buddah! Your words are so inspirational. Thank you!❤️
Awe thank you! And I love the nickname lol ?
Ann, I’ve been blessed to know you through many chapters in your life (and ultimately perhaps in your book as well). From the first day I met you, I recognized a light in you that glowed brightly through tears and laughter and all of the vicissitudes of your rich life. Through triumphs and losses and joys and sorrows, that light never dimmed. I came to know that light as the constant beacon of the seeker in you that keeps you open to all possibility, vulnerable to feeling fully, courageous to face adversity head on despite your fears; and with each challenge you face, that beacon grows only brighter. You wisdom is far beyond your years, your capacity for love knows no limit, and you truly are the change you want to see in the world. And despite all those great gifts, God still wasn’t satisfied; he had to make you adorable too. I’m happy that you’re making strides in finding your purpose, but in my eyes, you’ve been living your purpose for years….you are inspiration, faith and courage. I consider you part of my soul family. And as Jack Nicolson said in “As Good as it Gets”, you always make me want to be a better man. I will miss you greatly, because you were the best at what you did, but I will look forward with pride to your next ‘chapter’ and total confidence that you will take on and shatter all obstacles in your way with your passion and indefatigable spirit.
Pete I am at a loss for words. Thank you, thank you, thank you. You have always been a source of inspiration and guidance for me. I will miss our monthly chats but I know that we will never lose touch. Xox
Are you going into psychology? The things you write are the things I think but my words don’t come out the same. You have a heart of gold and whatever you do in life you’ll always succeed. Best of luck on your next journey!
lol not psychology Chris, just inspiration. 🙂 Thank you for the well wishes.
Well Anne….. one of the most compelling statement was ” It is time for us to start listening to the one person who has all the answers, ourselves. ” making changes in your life is such a tough decision, because we get so comfortable with our routine. Break that mold and go out and challenge yourself. In which you are doing. I wish you all the best with your journey… this for me is not a farewell….. but an opportunity to watch you grow..
You know it better then me! Best of luck to you on your new venture…xox See you soon my friend.
So excited for you to live in your journey and not just exist in a world of fear and security.It’s not the destination but the journey it takes to get there. I will be reading about your journey with the same enthusiasm as I did reading Patrice’s journals. I, one time in my life listened to my head instead of my heart and have regreted it ever since. Your heart will always send you on the right path.With joy in my heart I wish you all the love, peace,and happiness on your lifes journey.
Bonita
Bonita! Thank you for your support, it truly means so much. I will miss you! Please do stay in touch, I wish you the very best in life too.xox
Loved reading this Annie…I wish you lots of luck and happiness in your new endeavors. I for one, never listened to my heart, my mind always took over. I guess I was too scared. I truly admire you. I believe listening to your heart will bring you happiness.
That is beautiful advise Virginia, and thank you so much for your well wishes and kind words. Xo